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Going thru that sucky feeling all over again!

2010-09-30T22:30:00.002+08:00

I fucking hate how i feel now!!! Is definitely not pms because i just finish my period.
Why do i always have to suffer this alone? Is always night time when i can't be strong anymore!! and it all came crushing down till i can't even say i'm fine anymore. How i wish i could really cry out loud now and release all my emotion at one shot.

I thought i could be strong so strong that this time round i won't even shed a tear because of you. I guess i'm wrong, i can't take it anymore. I shouldn't had allow you in my life the second time. I shouldn't had meet you the other day. I shouldn't had promise anything to you! I shouldn't had trust you!

Is all my foolishness to blame!! Can't believe that I'm the fool again!! ALL OVER AGAIN!! I fucking have to face this emotional breakdown all over again!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! WHAT THE FUCK!!!

Thank you sooo much DUDE!!!!!!!!!

2010-09-29T16:45:00.001+08:00

Seriously i thought you really wanna start afresh with me but the next thing i know, you tell me you wanna end everything with me again! Seriously do you know what you want? Thanks your friend for making me feel that i should give it a try again but you can't make up your mind.

You told me so much and i was still looking forward maybe we can walk down the memories lane and find back the feeling we had for each other. BUT thank you sooo much of saying you wanted me because at the end of the day, you walk in my life the second time and mess it all up and left just like that and you freaking blame me for not being able to make up my mind. Thank you so much DUDE!!

Thanks for giving me hope and than smash it in front of my face!

PS:Really thank you very much for giving me a additional memory. That night, that very night! i will keep it in my heart!

You always brighten up my day!

2010-08-19T16:50:00.000+08:00

Thanks for everything dear! Thanks for being there whenever i need! Thanks for lending me your shoulder when i need! Thanks for your never fail to make me smile jokes!

Moving on and the scenery is great!!

2010-08-10T18:09:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY
Kayaking at Celestial resort till evening time... super duper tired but had a great dinner with boyboy and alan at bedok 85!!! DURIAN FOR DESSERT!! :))) Kind of had a dramatic parting at seragoon mrt station with boyboy kuku!! hahahaha... <3>
SUNDAY
Went sentosa with love ones... SAM,JANICE,YAPPY,JISMMY and KEVIN... Even thou that's some problem here and there but overall, i believe we did had fun on the day itself!! :)) Had a great dinner at thai express with JANICE and SAM!! :)) Head down to woodlands for mayor's crib!! good catching up session with mel baby.. reach home damn damn damn early!! 9am the next day!! hahahaha.... it's been a long time since i had my ton-ing session with my loves and friends.. :)

MONDAY
Finally can get some time with my boyfriend in the dream but was waken up by the kuku boyboy!! but still i fall back to sleep!! hahahaha... met him at about 5pus for ndp parade at marina bay sand.. the fireworks is fantastic ppl!!! is like directly at my face man!! hahahaha... but i forgot to take video of it!! hahahhaa... than dinner and back to campsite,drove by the dad!! :)))

ps: is enjoying every single min with you kuku!! <3

I will never forgive you!

2010-08-06T14:23:00.002+08:00
Yesterday seems like a drama to me... What have i done to make you to that to me? Is my life, i decide for myself! I got a shocked to know that you are actually the one!!! Don't expect me to say thank you to you!

I can't! Seriously i can't!

2010-08-04T10:20:00.002+08:00
1 year 2 months 28 days... it ended just like that!!

Can't believe that you can just forget all that we used to share, can't believe that you forget me just like that, can't believe you fall for another girl just like that, can't believe you ask me to move on with my life, can't believe that you don't even want to think of salvaging this relationship, can't believe you don't care for me anymore, can't believe that im just nothing to you now. You might as well kill me so that all this i won't get to see and feel. I know my pain compared to yours is nothing, i will hurt myself as badly to feel for you.

if you have to be so heartless to me, than i don't see a need to love anyone like i use to love you anymore. becos at the end of the day, i will still get this sucky feeling. Losing you allow me to know that you are the one i wanna settle down with, losing you allow me to know how important you are to me, losing you i don't wish to see the morning sun everyday, losing you i dread to wake up everyday.

I can't take it anymore. im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry.. no matter how many times i say, you dun feel a thing. kill me pls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All good things come to an end!

2010-03-19T13:25:00.003+08:00
Our ten months relationship has officially come to an end... and im sorry that our relationship don't work. Be it you or me, the both of us are at fault. Thinking back, actually i don't know what i want from you and i bet you don't know it too.. and before i can do anything it got complicated. No matter how much i don't want to let you go, i still let you go... Because it seems like i'm not a good girlfriend to you. I'm not the one that you want to settle down with. I remember i promise i won't let you go again but...... We broke up for the wrong reason wrong motive. If you want to blame me for telling your dad, i will take the blame. Your dad actually knew what is happening and i think is a basic courtesy to tell your dad we are no longer tgt. I'm sorry if you get nag or scolded by them. I can say i'm not trying to use your parents to salvage this relationship. If you want to think it that way, i will take it then...

In the day, no matter how hard i try to control my emotion, in the night it will come crushing down. Is so fast that i can't breath and i don't know what is happening. All i know was tears start rolling down my cheek. Baby i miss you... i miss the phuket trip with you,chua and nabila, i miss hugging you, i miss your house, i miss your kisses, i miss disturbing you, i miss the places that we went, i miss your nervous face.. there's so many things i miss about you but is like i have to dig a hole and bury all this...

Baby thank you! Thanks for giving me such a nice memories and thanks for giving me your parents love and adore. The necklace, watch and shoe and all.. THANK YOU
Last but not least, i hope after all this we are still friend...

Baby is for you!!

2010-02-17T20:47:00.002+08:00
Baby i dunno if you still reads my blog, but yesterday when i see you, but heart rips!!! i dunno what causes all this, i dunno why we ended up like this... all i know is i can bear to let you go...

every word that you said to me yesterday just made me keeps crying!! when i was in the cab, i just can't stop crying!! your words just keep appearing in my mind!!! at that very moment i just hope that none of this had happen before....baby i love you!!!

Baby i miss you!! i miss your smell, i miss your kisses, i miss your voice, i miss your smile, i miss your laughter!!! but i can't get any from you anymore!!! baby i wish i can hug you tightly now, i wish i can plant a kiss on your forehead now!!! I still have so many things that i wanna share with you and have memories with you!!! baby can you turn back and look at me?

BIRTHDAY!!!

2009-12-03T05:36:00.003+08:00
yeah yeah im celebrating my bday this coming sat!!! hahahaha and know what?? baby's deferment is successful!!!!! YEAH YEAH!!!! but he is going overseas on my bday, if his boss gonna send him instead of his dad!!! :(((((((((

I WISH I WISH I WISH!!!
1) Agnes b bag
2) ipod touch
3) samsung preston
4) canon camera
5) burberry perfume
6) baby im waiting!!(C***** ***G)
7) lotsa and lotsa of fun!!
8) lotsa and lotsa of dresses
9) DKNY watch
10) STUSSY jacket

that's all for now!! hahahahaha

baby happy seventh month!!! i love you <3

Third day without him...

2009-11-18T13:54:00.002+08:00
Day 3

Drag myself to work this morning!! cramps make me just feel like staying home and sleep!!! im suffering now in the office!! the pain just wouldn't go away from my stomach!! medicine is rubbish!! nothing is curing the pain!!

baby how i wish i can hear your voice now!! maybe my stomach won't hurt that much after that!! how i wish you can hug me tightly now!! how i wish i can plant a kiss on your face now!! baby if you ever read this few posts, know that deep down in my heart i really do love you!!

Even though i always complain about the holding hand and all but i still love you.. can you stop asking me to go find the guy that can give me what i want!!!

i want you only!!!!!!!!!!!

Second Day without him!!

2009-11-17T09:45:00.002+08:00
Day 2...

After spending time with myself for a few hours last night, i have to come to sense.. and it reminds me of a lot of things!!!!

I rmb how i first get to know baby and how we started out... it suddenly become very clear!!
i started to feel something for him when im doing beatty sec camp and i was still discussing with sam about it. and to denial this feeling i told myself "are you sure you like him? he is younger than you" this in fact help to turn me off a little!! but.....cos of a chain message it drew us closer.. than he started messaging me.. and day by day my love for him develop!!! we can from the moment we wake up, we will message till midnight when we are gonna slp.. and seriously i really like that kind of feeling...hahahaa...

baby, i make up my mind!! i decide to accept who you are but can you not let me feel the hack care feeling anymore? can you show me care and concern from the bottom of your heart??

i do not want our relationship just end it like that!! i still have a lot of things i wanna do with you!! i haven collect enough memories of the both of us yet!!

I LOVE SYED SHAZWIE TTM!!!! and i miss his voice badly!!!

TIME OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-16T10:33:00.001+08:00
First day without you: Day 1

Beginning of today was a bad day.. brought my swollen eyes to work and i just could not concentrate!!! how i wish i can just cry the whole day or just sleep the whole day!!! in my mind, your words keep appearing and reminding me that we are indeed on the rough patch.. what make it worse is not hearing your voice and not reading your message... im getting very emotional and i can't work!!SERIOUSLY!!!

baby i love you!! but sometimes you are not giving me your attention!!! say i selfish or whatever!!

ps:I LOVE YOU BABY!!

MADLY DEEPLY IN LOVE~~~~~

2009-11-10T11:32:00.002+08:00
It’s been awhile!!!!

Hmmm have been really busy with work as it is my last month in Wing Tai Asia.I think they know is my last month therefore, I have to help them do up all the next year documents and I’m buried with tons of work….

Even though I can’t wait to leave, I already miss some of my colleagues. Hahahhaa.. hmm some are really nice…. Hahahaha.. definitely I’m gonna miss them!!! Now, I'm just hoping that Camelot will employ me!!! cos they haven get back to me!! so i think to be safe, i shld start sending out resume to other company.. hahaha

hmmm maybe been really busy with work, i miss phuket!!! i miss the time spend over there, i miss the food there and moreover i miss the company of baby!!!! :) and seriously baby, i miss you badly!! i know is just one more day and we are meeting!! but i just miss you!!

Baby, do you know whenever i talk to you on the phone i feels disappointed and at the same time i was thinking am i too boring for you!! because whenever you talk to me on the phone you sound sleepy... and your that voice will make me can't wait to put down the phone immediately!!! i know you are tired but its really frustrating sometimes....
Are you getting sick and tired fo me?? Sometimes i just dun feel like leaving you that early but your attitude is like you can't wait to leave!!! baby must it be like that??
Does this apply to all guys? Once they get you, they stop chasing, they stop trying!!!!

Aftermath...

2009-10-31T18:23:00.002+08:00
HEllo, im back after a long break!! hahaha

hmm went phuket with baby and friends last week and it was fun!!!! but i got a very nice present frm phuket itself!!! :(( ask me personally if you wanna know what is it!!! hahahaha..

anyway, baby is going in army on the 11dec, which is one day before my bday :/.... how i wish it was just a dream when he break the news to me!!! but nvm, my bday celebration will be held 5dec then.. but i will only be back on the 5dec.. so!!!! i have no idea what is gonna happen so i got to wait till i have the iternary for the penang trip than make decisions... Baby know that i will wait for you, know that i will not change my heart. I love you baby!! :))

I dun know why is it so hard to keep to my promise, i dun know why i'm always waiting for things to happen, i dun know why i always do all the fuck up thing!!!!!!!!!
i just hope you would give me the very very last chance to mend this friendship. I really do not want to let this friendship slip off my hand.

What is it so hard?

2009-10-01T13:49:00.002+08:00
Last night another fight just went off!! and from morning till now, he never call and never reply my message... do i deserve all this??? You can dun reply my message dun ans my call but when i don't, you will make a big fuss out of it!!

Do you really love me deeply?? You are saying it but you are not doing it to show!!! your words dun tally with your action!!! I have been working for 3 months and not even once that you will come and fetch me after work... Even on your off day you rather sleep or meet your friends then come and fetch me or meet me!!!

I don't think I'm asking a lot from you!! i didn't ask you to buy me expensive stuff, i dun ask you to bring me to high class restaurant.... and i wanted was to tally up with what you had say to me... Show me you really love me.. Show me you really afraid of losing me.. Show me you are different from my ex... SHOW ME!!!!

What hurts the most was why do we behave like friends when we are in public area? Why do you always be the one letting go my hand? Why are you so afraid to show your love for me in public area? Am i not compatible enough for you?? Sometimes you just make feel like i'm not significant to you. i'm just any friend to you.

There's so many things that i wanna have memories with you, but it always seems wrong!!

List of things i wanna do with baby:
1) Take lotsa of photo tgt!!!
2) Celebrate each other 1st bday tgt!!
3) Go suntan tgt!!
4) Go shopping tgt!!
5) Go out tgt with my friends!!
6) COUPLERINGCOUPLERING!!
7) Surprise baby with smth special!!
8) Cook tgt!!
9) Go for movie marathon!!
10) Drink tgt!!

I hate it when you just dun care about me worrying.. not picking up or replying my message!!!!!!!!

2009-09-22T16:13:00.002+08:00
I dunno why, but im getting more and more insecure. Is like i can affirm you that i really love you but out of so many times you only do it like once or twice... am i really asking too much from you? i have so many doubts in my heart that i dunno how to ask you!!! and im scared!!

Baby i wanna apologise to you. Im sorry that i can't keep to the promises! Im really really sorry!!

2009-09-18T11:38:00.002+08:00
Is my pms acting up or deep down in my heart i really felt it that way? You seems to have a lot of things hidding from me and is bothering me! I really felt it that way and i felt really out of place.

It can be better!!

2009-09-09T11:10:00.003+08:00
Alright, my workload is piling up like crazy and almost half of it is urgent docs!! wth!!!

Hmm sis just went throught a minor surgery on mon!! and she's resting at hm now!! and bro-in-law is so sweet!! hahaha... he actually cook fish porridge for her so that after her surgery she gets to eat!!! the porridge is filled with love!!!hahahah.. hmm and sis got 30days mc!!! she shld have a good rest then!

I'm always hoping that one day when i come out from the office i will see you standing there waiting for me! but it nv happen.
I'm always hoping that one day you will say, baby i meet you for lunch! but it nv happen.
I'm always hoping that one day i wont be the one asking if you wanna meet, but it nv happens.

but whenever you call me when im at work, all the tiredness is all gone!! hearing ur voice always make me feel better!!!! :) and i will tell myself, pauline oh dun be greedy!! dun ask too much from him. he's tired too!!
Okay stop talking about this!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY!!!!
gonna treat her thai food tonight!! yeah!! looking forward!!!

ps:You always brighten up my days with your sleepy voice! and im falling for it!! :)

What did i do to deserve all this???

2009-09-01T12:04:00.002+08:00
Alright, it's been a while since i update my blog!!

hmmm last week just ended pl camp!! but it wasn't a good one!! PAULINE OH you have to start to SPEAK UP FOR URSELF!!! the camp can be categories under 'super exhausting'. hahahaa.. but the camp is still an enjoyable one!!! the kids is adorable just that they talk like that's no tmr...

hmm and baby bought me the salomon shoe alr!!!! is pink in color!! :) Thank you baby!!

Well, things wont be going the way you want all the time, and i think my life have been too good, so it came crushing down on me real hard!! so hard that i couldn't breath. Many times, ppl tends to only listen to one side of the story and at that moment you would judge the person death sentence. Than have you ever realize that there's always two side to a story? Have you ever think of listening to the other side of the story? Is not fair!! i know nothing is fair in this world but when it happens to you, you want it to be fair. Or maybe the words of ppl is scary, so scary that they can twist and turn whatever you had said and ppl just believe it.

Alright, i think this post is too emotional. Blame it on PMS!!!

BYE to the scary world!!

ps:Thanks for loving me and being there,baby!! :)

Busy with something!!!!

2009-08-18T08:30:00.002+08:00
Hello everybody!!! it's been a long time since i last update!!! hahahaha

Finally after so long!!! THERE'S CAMP!!! hahahaa.. after a long break, pl camp will be on 27-29aug!!!! and i specially took off for the camp!!! hahahaha.. i miss camp!!! hahaha
Hmm anyway i hope is gonna be a fun camp!!

Have been very busy this few weeks!! got product seminar and new stocks are coming in!!!! im like multi tasking almost everyday!!! hahahaha
but busy is better than nothing to do!! haha..

Hmm baby says he wanna buy me salomon shoe!!!!! hahahahah and im looking forward to that!!! hahahahahaha...yeah!! i got salomon shoe!!!! hhahaha.. but becos of the shoe, he got to work like every day if not the both of us cant buy!! and the disadvantage is, thi whole week i cant meet him!!! becos he is working!!!! sadded!!!!!

okay..im off to meet my frens!!!

BYE!!

3rd Month

2009-08-04T18:04:00.001+08:00
HAPPY 3RD Month BABY!!!!
Finally after three months, we watch movie tgt!! hahahahahha

hmm meet baby after work, than went sakae sushi for dinner!!!! than we decided to catch a movie!!! HANGOVER is damn hilarious!!!! ppl you shld go watch!! hahahaha..
hmm it had been 2 consecutive days that baby send me home!!! and i like it!!! hahha

Have been busy with work!! and super tired!!! but i still spend quality time with my frens and families!! hahahahahaha

okay, gtg.. byee!!

ps:i love you baby!! :)

It's been a long while!!!

2009-07-15T08:14:00.002+08:00
Good morning!! the time now is 8.19am.. and im in the office already!! today is a cold day cos it started raining early in the morning!!! and i have to force myself to bring umbrella to work!!! hahaha

hmm this week is suppose to be a good start but i dunno why we just keep quarrelling.... maybe becos of my pms that's why....

baby this is for you!!!
i told you, im not trying to say that you are not good enough for me i just dun like the hack care feeling you always show me....becos it doesn't show that you are afraid of me leaving you or you really love me alot... and it makes me doubt your words and eventually i feel insecure...
Sometimes your action just show that you dun love me anymore.. i ask you, why do you have to remove the comment i wrote on your facebook? why do you hide your status? All this that you are doing only make me feel that you dun love me anymore.. and it dun tally with what you say to me.. i dun want you to say i love you for the sake of saying... i want it really coming from the bottom of your heart... can i get a affirmation from you? i really want our relationship tp last as long as possible....
and they are many things we haven do tgt!!!

JOKE JOKE JOKE!!

2009-06-16T15:06:00.002+08:00
okay hmm ytd went out with SWPE!!! and i bought a new slipper from havaianas!!!!i love it!!!hahahahahahaa..anyway i got the part time admin job from wingtai... so this thurs got to go down to sign appointment letter!! I'm officially a office lady now!!!hahahahaha.. gonna start work on 1july i think!!! sianz!! like that means lesser night life!!!!!!!!SADDED!!!

Anyway last night SWPE and i went to eat rochor tauhuay and a very funny convo came out!!
me:eh you got see mutton?
SWPE:huh?
me:mutton ah!!got see not?
SWPE:huh? niu rou?(beef)(牛肉)
me:hahahahaah..no la..98.7 mutton la!!!
SWPE:hahahahahahahaa..ooohoohooh..
me:and mutton is not niu rou lor is yang rou!!!
both:hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahhahhahahahah

See!! if the both of us go out all the stupid thing will happen..hahahaha..

This sat is picnic!! and i cant wait for sat!!!hahahahahahaha..hmm gonna be fun fun fun and fun!!hahahahaha...

hmm i kind of getting tired over the quarrels that we are having!!we are always fighting over the same old things and is getting on my nerves!! i know you want me to stop clubbling but what i need is you to understand and give me time to change..and not ask me not to go completely!!! i need time to adapt to the change!! you keep saying you sacrifice alot for me and i know that.. the most hurtful things that you say is that you dont see what i have sacrifice for you!!this is so unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont know what had happen!!!!

2009-06-09T14:57:00.003+08:00
Happy Birthday MYRAKEH!!!
Happy Birthday BAOBAO!!!!

Hmm clubbing at stjames was fun!!! and the most irritating thing is ashley vomit on my leg like twice!! but is ok i forget him cos he's drunk!!!hahahaha.. but overall was fun!!! will uipload the photos once i got it!!!!

I think im lost in the lalang!!!

hmm wiewie is in camp and we only get to contact in the night after lights off!! i just hope he will pay his phone bill soon!!!! this fri is pay day!!!! finally!! got alot of debts to pay back too!!!hahahahahahaha.. hmm wiewie wanna buy me the 50litres GII bag!! hahahaha..that waterproof bag is really awesome!!! hahaha..we are planning to go for a short hols!! either Bali or go on star cruise!! i had check the pricing and it really cost alot!!! so gonna really work work and work!!! hahaha... i miss him to the max!!

Oh tmr gonna go for an interview for part time admin at wingtai!!! ong!! i just hope i get in!! hahahahaha.. than i will be able to work and at the same time study since my lesson is in the night!!!! oh ya the ndp ppl just called me and say i won 6tickets for ndp!!!! is like OMG la!!!! hahaha but still short of two cos the clique that is going for ndp consist of 8ppl!!!!! im jus hoping one of us will get another 6tickets!!!!hahahahahahahaha

I dont know what had happen!!!

Can't believe it!!!

2009-05-13T19:19:00.000+08:00
OKay after a long while.. i think i shld update!!!!
hmm have been going out and doing nothing for the past few days!!!

Been meeting my lovely frens(cchy&wpe) and i love doing that!!! hahahahahaa
Prata house, bishan is the place we usually at!! hahaha...
Hmm not been home for like a few days..haha...
Err sun went to baby house to stay over cos went for his frens bbq!!
than on mon went to sis's house to stay over cos she dun dare to sleep alone..hahahaha..funny right!!!lols..

hmm anyway Sis's wedding is really round the corner and i still haven settle the table thingy for her..hahahahahahahaah.. im sorry!!!! will get it done soon!!
Hmm sis brought a 100bucks dress for me and i think is super ex lor... but is super nice!!hahaha

Okay one last thing...
I'm officially taken on the 3rd May!!! hahaha
and 10days have pass... the unfortunate thing is that his line is terminated cos he never pay..
so i cant realy contact him in the day..hahaha unless he call me!!!hahahaah
and serious he is super stubborn!!!!
body ache like hell still dun wan to see doc!!!!!!!!! if cant i would want to slap his face!!!hahahaha
ok enough of ranting!!!hahahahaha
but baby know that i still love you okay?hahahaha

ps:nua-ing in progress!!!!

AFter a long while!!

2009-05-02T02:28:00.005+08:00

It's been very long since i last update..hahahaa

hmm First two weeks of may got no camps... so gonna slack..

Sis's wedding is on the 23may!!! OMG.... i cant believe she gonna get marry already!!!!hahahaah

hmm gonna post some photos taken in club!!hahahahaa.. anywhere have been going clubbing for the past few weeks... and i really drink alot!! hahahahahaahaha... i have been drinking and someone have been playing bowling!! hahahahahhaha...

Stubborn wiewie!!!

okay ppl..i gtg...night!!!

TIRED!!!

2009-04-12T17:15:00.002+08:00
Okay..jus finish a few camps...montfort camp was the nicer because on the last day, the sch actually ask a ice cream stall to come to the campsite!! abd the ice cream is all free for the instructors!!!!hahahahhahhaha.. but it is the most tiring camp too...becos out of the 4days3night camp, i got 2days of water activities!!!

I realize i kind of neglect some of my friends cos didn't have time to meet out wit them and have fun!!! but anyway this wed im meeting jas,steph and bao to powerhouse!!!lols... is time for some party everyone!!!lols...

ok i got to go!!!!! shall update after i come back from SCGS pri camp!!!

Im tired and done whatever i shld!!!

2009-03-20T00:55:00.002+08:00
It's been a long time since i last blog..

have been going for camps!!! and i enjoy it becos i can be able to not stay at home for more than 3days to one week!!hahaha...

Anyway,
Have been undergoing a lot of changes, changes that i least expected!! Even though life is expected to have changes all the time but i kind of hate this changes, becos i look like a idiot behaving that way and no one else knows about it!!

We use to share almost everything but you don't anymore which somehow allows me to doubt! After what had happen, is really hard for me to trust you sometimes, i used to trust you wholeheartedly but is all scattered into millon pieces... is jus so hard for me to talk to you about it and everytime i think about it, it jus brought tears into my eyes...

Am i losing you already?

it was supposed to be a fine day but.........

2009-02-10T14:46:00.002+08:00
ok im going for another camp tonight...with tingting(that's not my name),cheryl and poh ee..
i hope this camp will turn out well....and i really hate sunrise cafe food!!!!!!
can you imagine every camp you went the food is always the same!!!haha..

hmm to you:
i think i have say whatever i wanna say to you through sms.. even though i wanna spend time wit you yesterday(i mean jus the two of us,so that we can htht) but i think the time is jux not right... i would want to tell you all the things personally but i think is kind of hard now.. cos i think you dun trust me anymore. in fact if i had take you forgranted i would not spend my sleeping time talking to you hours and hours..talking about everything/anything.. and sometimes things that i told you i nv tell anyone be4 including my 12yrs fren...
you can choose to believe it or not... i got noth more to say...

ok..i think that's all i wanna say..

oh and it has been very long since i get to hang out wit jasmine,bao,steph and lixin....myra and cca too...

SORRY!!!

2009-01-17T00:53:00.002+08:00
sorry forgot some of them!!!

WEITING also share the present with myra and cca!!

XIANG brought me a box of chocolate!!!

okay im super duper tired!!! jus came back from admiratly sec camp.and went to sis wedding shoot.. my eyelid is super duper heavy!!!!

MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!

2009-01-03T01:29:00.003+08:00
OK i forgot to update my 18thyear bday present!!hahahahahahahahahha

WONGPOHEE- she make a very unique and one and only shirt for me and a bag for my toiletries!!haha
toher-thanks alot..i like the shirt becos is one and only one in this world!!!Love you

CHERYLCHAN- i think she brought me mani and pedi voucher!!!
toher- thank you very much!! i love you!!

STEPH- she brought me a perlini silver bracelet!!!
toher- thanks alot, cos i love it!! i love you too!!!

JASMINEWEE- she brought me my favourite water bottle from nike!!!
toher- i really love the bottle.. even though is not the colour i like i will still love it!!! thanks!! i love you!!

CECILIA&MYRA- they brought me a jansport backpack and a hademake card and a pig!!!
tothem- thanks alot, i love the bag and the card!! myra i really like the bag!! i will use it when i meet you!!haha i love you!!!

BAOBAO,YANGZHI,BOONLEONG,LIXIN- they brought me a burberry perfume!!!
tothem- thanks alot ppl..i really like the perfume and thanks for coming!!! i love you!!

PAPADAM- he brought me a dickies bag..
tohim-thanks alot dude!!! haha... and thanks for coming too!! love you!!

SOOK&PHYLLIS-they brought me a doll!!!
tothem- thanks alot..i love you and really thanks for coming!!!!

GODSIS(JANET,MAY&WENDY)- they brought me a adidas watch!!!!
tothem- thank you very much..i really like the watch!!!! i really thanks god for giving me three more sister!!!!

GODMA&GODPA- they give me a hongbao!!!!
tothem- i really love you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY SISTER(KAREN)- she brought me a wallet from wallet shop!!
MY SISTER&KELVIN- they brought me to this japanese restaurant for dinner!!!
tothem- thank you very much!! i simply just love you all!!!

I REALLY LOVE YOU ALL!!!

and there's somemore ppl i wanna thanks but i dun think is apropriate to say here!!!!
Last but not least thanks for coming to my birthday celebration and i really enjoyed myself!!! and a big thank you to all who had wish me,,thanks!!!

CAMBODIA TRIP 2008

2009-01-02T22:11:00.003+08:00

Happy new year to everyone!!!

hmm went to catch the fireworks!!! and is really awesome!!!! i love fireworks to the max!!!!haha

hmmm i went to cambodia this year..is my first year going and the life that is really moving a much slower pace... and i dunno whether is the ppl there really contented or had nothing to ask for.. they are friendly and i think the kids there are sooo adorable and innocent!!!! i would love going back there!!!

shall update some photos too...

hmm and i really grow up alot from the trip... and i can declare myself *****free now.. but i dun promise it wont come back.. becos i have been feeling quite stressful nowadays, so ya.. but i will still make it a point to quit if i ever pick it up again!!! 020209!!!!

MY 18th BIRTHDAY!!

2009-01-02T21:59:00.009+08:00

yeah!!!!

2008-12-02T21:01:00.003+08:00
YEAH!!! TEN MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!!hahahahaahaha

i gonna celebrate my at ecp..is gonna be a bbq ah.. but im quite sad cos some of my frens can't turn up.. and my god parents can't go...argh!!! VERY SAD!!!!!!

have been so busy that is been a long time since i update!! hahaha...
hmm went to learn some handicraft today at yishun.. and i think i like it..haha.. if im rich enough i might buy all the beads and stuff..haha.. oh and today is jaslyn's birthday!!!haahaha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASLYN!!!!

hmmm learn how to make ear rings.. cos gonna teach the cambodian...hahahaa..i so excited!!!hahahahaahhahhahahah... hmm but im short of money for the trip!!!!urgh!!!
ok i dunno what's more to say..hahaha

YEAH!!!

2008-11-03T20:08:00.002+08:00
YEAH!! Finally left with sci mcq... really cant wait for it to end..haha...

hmm im at my godma house, and when i was on my way here i was thinking about my life nowadays..

i realize i have become very sensitive, sensitive to little things that happen...

i jus hope nth bad is gonna happen that's all..and i seriously hate howi feel now, is like the whole thing is crashing onto me yet i cant call for any help...
Actually i realise many things ain't you think as it is.. becos when you think you are close to her actually it wasn't... is so tiring.. so tiring to respond to anything anymore...

OKay, let's talk about something happy!!!
As i said i have decided to have a BBQ on 11dec.. than maybe the actual day go for a drink or smth.. i hope everything is gonna be fun and interesting!!!hahahaa...
really gonna save alot and cos i want everyone to have fun and enjoy the day!!haha

Also wanna save money to go shopping!! hahaha.. i have think of my shopping khakis already!!
that is cheryl, steph, jas, cca and also poh ee if she wanna come...haha.. know what, everytime we go shopping, poh ee will always add as a guy and help us carry our 'zhan li pin'..haha..

Anyway poh ee's bday is tis coming fri and she's gonna celebrate on the 6nov at mac..hahaha.. i actially gonna make her a cake but i scared it will fail..haha.. at most i have to buy her a cake lor..hahaha...

OK, i will end with a quote..
'Fake a smile so that they won't see'

FINALLY!!!

2008-11-01T01:49:00.002+08:00
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO STEPH AND WEI TING!!!

Hope you girls enjoy the birthday celebration!!!! Went to watch REC..it was really gruesome!!!hahaah

hmmm finally O level is coming to an end.. and it means I can party and play all i wan!!! hahaha.. but first i mus secure myself with a job.. cos if nv work where got money to play and drink and go crazy!!! hahaha

hmmm might be working at harley davidson and go for camps!!haha i cant wait ah!! and my bday is coming in a month plus!!haha gonna celebrate by having a bbq at east coast park!! lols.. im so looking forward for it la.. becos that means im 18 and i legal...hahahahhahaah

okay that's all i wanna say!!!

after a long week!!! i miss those days!!

2008-10-11T00:39:00.011+08:00
ME and MY DEAREST NIECE!!!

FEAST!!!! thanks to uncle!!!

Presenting you my top beer!!!

The four!!

Better than not updating..hahaha..

see my niece, ppl always thought she was my daughter!! do i look that old???LOLs..
my is okay..hahaha...

enjoy ppl... im off to study!!!

PRELIMS!!!

2008-09-07T22:19:00.002+08:00
Hmmm can say that i really really used up my time becos this one week hols im super duper busy!!!!! and i spend most of the time travelling and studying.. PRELIMS!!!!

Was staying at jiejie house.. cos my sis-in-law is admitted to hospital and next week he's going for his operation.. he's actually undergoing 3 bypass in his heart.. and is really a very big operation... i hope he's gonna be alright...

hmmm and i declared im rich now..hahaha..becos was working at globe for this cupcake event, and is kids there are super duper CUTE!!!hahaahhahaa... i can pay back those ppl who i own them money...lols...

OH... and today is Jasmine's Birthday!! she's finally legal... but im not!!! so angry!!LOLs...
hmmm hope you enjoy the surprises that he gave you.. i hope it was well plan...LOLs..

ok..back to life!!
like what i say life is never fair... and is fcuking unfair.. becos in this world you can only stay slim and pretty, so that other ppl will notice you, if you are fat and ugly. i think you shld prepared yourself for the worse!!!!
and truely, i really hate frens who get near you for some motives!! this is something i cannot accept from frens! SERIOUSLY!!

I miss those days when we all have fun and go crazy, but i believe is gonna be hard.. becos they will always get involve and it really turn me off...SERIOUSLY!!!!

okay, that's all i wanna roar about...
Quote for the day:
Things ain't perfect as you think of!!

stop being mopish!!!

2008-08-25T23:29:00.002+08:00
What's the point of trying so hard when it doesnt work, it doesnt matter?I dont know. So dont. So stop. Cos there's no point

Hmmm ok is really been very since i last update!!! haha.. hmmm prelim is starting this week so really gonna chiong study!!! tmr meeting my loves to study at bishan library....

i hope mum will agree to let me go cambodia for voluntary work, cos I WANT!!hahaah
hmm will be very busy with sch work,the trip and also my own stupid stuff!!!

oh, i just came back from my family chalet..is good becos the bonding is there... deardear is soooo adorable!!!!haahhhaa i love them!!!!

i still visit my lj...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm....

2008-08-04T22:07:00.002+08:00
Oh.. very long never update already!!!

hmmm busy with school and trip.. so i kind of worn out in the night!!! haha..
dunno what to update either...haha

Quotes for today:
People come and go and we know this happens, yet get such a shock when it does!!

but when certain left you, all you felt was hurt!!! deep down inside is all crushed and messy!!!!
im sorry.. im quite emo in this post!!!!
Know what, in a relationship, if you both keep rehashing the same arguments, it means neither of you is compromising, which is a crucial element in healthy relationship..
Lixin even though you and him does not occur in this situation, but i hope you would cherish it ya.. if you let it slip through ur hand it might not be easy to get it back again.. ya??

ps: i hope you and him happy ever after!!!

wowowowowowowowooowoow

2008-07-21T14:58:00.003+08:00
THIS is the cookies that i bake!!! DO you think i can actually do business??

16JULY
Have lunch with Xiang,yang zhi,jasmine,bao and steph... hahaha..
we have lotsa fun, becos we were discussing about the family tree!!! hahahahahaa..
Xiang where is the family tree?? lols..
17July

Happy birthday CHERYL CHAN!!! hahahahahaah

finally legal already right..

hmmm than after the celebration, poh ee and I went to meet wen jie and alvin to drink... than we took last train home!!!
errr have been drinking for almost the whole week!!! hahahahaha...

18JULY

Went to wen jie house to celebrate Alvin and Benson Poh bday!!! wowowowowoow!!!
drink vodka kurant..hahaha than xian ping, poh ee and me took nightrider home..
I went to golf course there to find korkor,korkor's frens,jiejie and kelvin!!!!
and im very angry cos korkor fren say the cookies taste nice becos is free.... hahahahahahaahah..
anyway, it was only a joke lah....
I think you are weird...hahaha

19JULY

Went to jordan in the afternoon, than went to j8 to meet my family!!!
deardear is so adorable... hahaha.. shall upload the video soon!! lols...
than celebrate dad's 57th birthday!!!! happy birthday!!!
Than head down to punggol, and all the cookies i bake haven even leave the house is already been eaten up!! hahaha..

20JULY
jiejie: eh get change ah, you dun wan to go eat ah?
me: ya okay!!
jiejie: hahaha..hurry lah!!
me: ya okay.. i tell you everything!!
jiejie: tsk tsk!!!
hahaha.. is nice to irritate my sis!! lols... hahahaha
Than went shopping at thomson plaza ntuc, brought alot of groceries!! hahahaha
Dessert time!!!!!

went to meet wen jie, wee tuck and poh ee to drink at bottle tree restaurant!!
Alvin came to meet us after his dinner with his parents!!!!
Than poh ee and me took last train home!! hahaha..
and ohwenjie very zhilian!!! lols...

Than ytd went to meet poh ee for dinner...at j8..
than wenjie, daryl loh and xian ping meet us after their movie!!! lols
and ohwenjie make us exercise, he make us walk with him to the bus stop where he can take bus hm...so we walk from j8 to the golf course.... than the most shocking thing happen....
WONGPOHEE LEFT HER MP3 AT THE COFFEESHOP!!!
so we have to take bus to j8 again!!!! we are exercising ah!! lols...
so i manage to reach hm at about 11 plus!! lols...

Today went nebo for lunch with cheryl, lixin and teck heng.. than we play monopoly!!
hahaha.. a lot of crap!!!!
THat's all for today!!!!

EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE!!!

2008-07-13T22:42:00.002+08:00
12JULY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN GOH YUE SHU!!!

hmmm wake up damn early thinking of baking cookies for cheryl, but my stupid oven SPOILT!! wtf!!! anyway, i went down to seragoon to meet them, actually jus pop by to say hi becos i need to rush back to amk for dinner cos the whole family is waiting for me... so cheryl i hope you understand after the convo we had ytd...

13JULY,
What a SHOCKING news!!! Well, if you guys think that im weird nowadays, im sorry.. if im not sharing, im sorry... The family crisis im having now and all the things that is happening to me, u ppl cant understand... even if i say it out, that's nothing you can do.. i believe i can still withstand it.. even though im not that strong...haha..

i dont share becos i doubt frenship... i no longer trust that...only when trust is back, i will knock down the wall in my heart and start sharing...

ppl who know me will know it... me is me..
my way of true frens is mine own way.. so dun compare...
why do ppl always say thing that is so harsh on IMPULSE!!!!
THINK BEFORE YOU SAY!! WORDS THAT HAD BEEN SAID USUALLY CAN'T BE TAKEN BACK..
you dun deserve a brain cell in my mine.. so i will for get that...

EMOOOOOOO

2008-07-11T15:11:00.003+08:00
FALL FOR YOU:(MY FAVOURITE SONG)
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another dayI swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
OhhhhBut hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossibleSo breathe in so deep
Breathe me inI'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another dayI swear it's trueBecause a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

Hmmm happy birthday hong yap!!! finally legal right!! lols..
hmm the bbq was great, and i drink alot.. and know what my leg is swollen!!
thanks to you toh hong yap!!!! is freaking painful lor.. wth!!
hmmm i dun feel lyk going.. dun feel like!!

You were everything, everything that I wanted We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it All of the memories, so close to me, just fade away All this time you were pretending.

woooooooooosh..

2008-07-06T21:15:00.003+08:00
4JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TECK HENG!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NARESH!!

BECOS IS FRIDAY,so i meet out with my lovely friends!!!
Wen Jie,Xian Ping,Wee Tuck,Daryl,Ruben,Haresh,Poh ee and Cecilia!!!
haha.. and they can't stop disturbing me by using this three word
"NI GUAN WO"....haha..and sometimes it is really very annoying!!!lols
and we drink three cans of amsterdam!!! very nice!!!!!lols... than went to find jiejie,korkor and kelvinkorkor... went to play billard till 3 plus than went hm..haha.. and know what..
IT WAS A SUCCESS!!! because they say the cookies is nice!!hahaahaha... next time i wanna bake muffin!! hahaha...

5JULY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN WONG!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN LIM!!

SATURDAY!!!!! know why im so happy? because i visit my niece every sat without fail, unless is my friend bday celebration.. if not, i dun give a damn!! SERIOUSLY!! NO JOKE!! haha.. and my niece is soooo damn adorable.. even though she look like ah boy, but no matter what she's always my adorable niece!!!hahahaha.. and yeah.. mummy brought me a 2gb memory card!!hahahaha... i love you alot alot mummy!!! no matter what!!!

6JULY
Went braddell mac to study with my lovely friends..LIXIN and POH EE!!!
hmm study for about 2 hours, we went to poh ee house to cook!! poh ee cook spagghetti and i cook tom yum soup!!!! YUMMY YUMMY YUM YUM!!hahaha... we cook what.. so obviously lixin have to wash the bowls lah..hahahahahahh...
than head down to godma house!!! have dinner again.. im damn fucking full and know what, im meeting my girlsfren for supper at prata house.. im gonna be damn fat!!!!!lols...
i like to go to my godma house becos they always make me feel good and sometimes pamper!!hahahaahahahahahahahaahaahha... i love you very very much!!!

oh tmr im going cheryl house to bake cookies..this time i wanna bake more..so that i can bring home and give my parents and also sisters try!!!lols... ok, gtg.. bye!!!!

POOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-29T23:52:00.000+08:00
Well,
school has start and one week have pass...and it means that exam are near tooo

and know what,i grow to love maths and physic more, and this is a good thing!!!
dont you think so!!!!hahaha

Every friday im booked!! becos gonna meet few of my lovely frens... the two guys who imitates me.. and one guy who act as a gay...hahaha.. and my pig fren and blurrr fren!!!! I seriously love them lotsa!!!!hahahahhahaha

hmmm today went bedok reserviour for dragonboat race!! and know what!!!
WE CAME IN SECOND!!! which is a good thing!! hahahahaahahahahha

i like dragonboat.. but i dun like to go for training!! hahahahaahahahahaha
dun you think is funny..hahahahahahaah..anyway, was very happy!!!

errr and one more thing is steph sweetheart injured her leg!!! and seriously please dun cross the road tat way again!!!!! PLEASEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..hahaha

ps:fake a smile, so that they wont see!!!

I'M BREAKING DOWN!!!

2008-06-24T00:17:00.000+08:00
when today is the first day of school..
and thing happened!!!

IM BREAKING DOWN..
but i know i cant.. becos they need me!!!

pics...................

2008-06-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

FUNZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2008-06-10T23:03:00.000+08:00
Aiyo,june happen to have alot of ppl bday!! and im super super broke now!!!haiz..
hmmm sat got to work...and H is crazy becos he keep wanting to have our break together which i dun like becos i think he is weird!!! and so i decided to go have my break secretly but he kind of find out..than after that he show me attitude!! HELLO,i dun think i did anything wrong ah!! crazy right????

Anyway,rush down to marina square after work to meet the others to celebrate bao bday..actually bao wanted to have pizza as dinner but as you know is a sat,so is kind of pack so we had our dinner at swensens...than after dinner we went chill bar for drinking cum slacking session..haha..we ordered one chivas and tequila...and also one bucket of beer!!!!and know what,we finish in 4hours..hahahahaha..ppl who went to celebrate: cheryl,steph,poh ee,jasmine,lixin,j.ong,yang zhi,xiang,teck heng,mei yuan,yi bin,liwei,ashley,roger,dennison,eric,joseph,jordan and boon leong....

Than only slept for 6hrs,wake up and went to meet pohee,cca and weiting to buy myra's present..hahahahahaha...than i went to godma house to play with feon and all... ard 7plus went to myra house to celebrate her bday!! than myra,cheryl,cca,weiting,pohee,alvin,navinn,benja,adumb,fairus,jas and steph went to mac for dinner/supper...haha...and we went to a open area to drink..and we drink till ard 4plus and went back to myra house to continue our ton-ing session!!!hahaha...we had fun..hahahahahah
i shall let those pics do the talking!!!hahahahaa

2008-06-05T00:48:00.000+08:00
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ohohohohohhohohoh...

2008-06-04T23:38:00.000+08:00
Well someone comlain that my blog dun always have her name on it..so i told her i will write for 100times..hahahahaha

okay,have been very busy this whole week..is a busy schedule for this whole week,but i still manage to meet out with my lovely frens..hahahahahaha..one of them is CHERYL CHAN!!

Today after work i meet out with CHERYL for dinner...CHERYL and me went for dinner at pasta mania...CHERYL ate al fungi and i ate aglio olio with additonal of button mushroom<3<3!!
than CHERYL and i went J8 charles&keith to buy this patform shoe..and CHERYL and i were like hesitating whether to buy anot...but in the end,CHERYL and i brought the platform!!!hahaha
Than CHERYL and i went to the hongkong cafe for some dessert!!hahahahahahaha..than CHERYL keep complaining...as CHERYL walk CHERYL complain and complain!!!hahahahahahaa

Than i acc CHERYL to take train home!!! and tmr CHERYL might not be meeting me..cos CHERYL going take photo with myra all!!! so CHERYL now like that!!!!CHERYL even complain about it on my tag!!! CHERYL confirm lose... cos CHERYL only wrote 46 times..hahahahaha

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wooooooooooooooooo!!!!

2008-05-25T23:23:00.000+08:00
okay i have a long list of things to say!!!

firstly,on sun went guang ming shan for prayers, and i got bruises all over my leg..haha but i duh mind!!! it was really tiring and the very next day....

Secondly,went sentosa to sun-tan... it was fun..becos i went with a bunch of lovely ppl!!!
Roger,yi bin.meiyuan,xiang,teck heng,boon leong,dennison,zhi liang,yang zhi,joseph,steph,poh ee and cheryl...it was fun...amd after sooo long i finally get tan!!!!hahaha

thirdly, went changi for briefing regarding the camp at xinghua primary school..went with poh ee ah, and surprisingly all the camp instructors smoke!!! hahaha.... the briefing is lyk till 11plus ah..and by the time i reach home is already 2plus...

fouth, i have to wake up sooo early to go for the camp...and i slept at 3plus lah.. so i have insufficient of sleep!!! cheryl attended the camp too....

okay,on the first day of camp, im doing belaying and it was so tiring... have to be under the hot sun all!!! pohee was not with us she went to the other group!!! overall the camp was fun!! becos i get to know alot of ppl..ppl that is diff from our age and they are sooooooo interesting and funny!!
Those ppl that i get to know from the camp was
Crystalbelle,angie,abby,kc,rae,iza,shah,richard,sheikh,ahmad,kenneth,fezzie,ridzwan,farhan,don,
ah man,nizal.... haha... alot right?? lols....

okay..im done with it!!! hahahahaha

I LIKE HIM!!!!

2008-05-10T01:53:00.001+08:00
I LIKE HIM!!!!

school!!!

2008-05-10T01:26:00.000+08:00
hmmm when i think i screwed up all the papers..
i felt happy for chem only,becos i think i shld be able to get a pass for it!!!!

hmmm have been giving my cousin tuition..becos i didn'i do very well,so i wanna help her!!!!
SEEE i soooooo good!!!!LOLs...

haha..anyway,i dunno what to say!!!

To:
You call me a stranger, you say I'm a danger, But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight. I'm broken, abandoned; you are an angel Making all my dreams come true tonight. I'm confident, But I can't pretend I wasn't terrified to meet you. I knew you could see right through me I saw my life flash right before my very eyes And any chance what we turn into I was hoping that you could see Take a look at me so you can see...

2008-05-04T17:19:00.000+08:00
alright im left with maths n science paper..
both also veri important....i wanna die doing maths the whole day!!!
haha..anyway the life im having now is bullshit!!!

"People Will Forget What U SaidPeople Will Forget What U DidBut People Will Never Forget How U Made Them Feel"

heyheyhey!!!

2008-04-28T21:39:00.000+08:00

THIS IS MY FAVOURITE NOW!!! AND I WANNA GET THIS PHONE!!!

Okay english paper is down..

still got ss,hist,math and science!!!

im veri scared!! im so not prepare yet..

everything happen so fast!!

okay,tmr onwards all im gonna do is study study and study!!! this is wat a student shld do wat right? Agree??? i believe alot of them will agree..hahahahaha

hmmm i kind of settle down with the life im having now...school and all...

but i still miss the life i have last year!!haha.. well, ppl often think of wat they miss wat!!!

i reall hate LSK lah..she damn yaya can...and she always think lowly of us!! WTH!!!

but wat to do i can understand her teaching!!BUT sometimes only lah!! hahahaha...

I have got new tutor!! for maths...and the person is JOANNE FU!!hahaha..

i need more math tutor!! and english also!! currently i got cheryl who's coaching on my english!!

hahaha...and for science i still can cope with it...so is okay!!!hahaha...

See..i got so many teacher...hahahahaha

Poh ee can teach me physics!!!hahaha

hmm i think tat's all for my school life!!!

wanna know about my life will be at my lj!!hahaha

bye ppl!!

SHEESHA!!!

2008-04-21T22:33:00.000+08:00
okay!!! i shall update my blog!!!becos someone threaten me!!!so i got no choice!!! hahahhahahah..

hmmm Jez is leaving sgp soon..which is this coming sun... Jez i swear im gonna miss you... n whenever i drink i will think of you!!! haha..u shld know why right!!LOLs...
Went arab street of sheesha on sat...ppl who was there is JEZ,BENJA,MYRA,POHEE,JAS,CHERYL n lastly CECILIA!!!!hahahaha..n of course me lah!!Lols
we have fun...we took silly photos n also our new trend,video...haha...
hmmm everything is at the correct place now..everyone enjoy it!!! but jez is leaving!!!!
anyway,we will all miss you ya!!!

ohohohoh..jez hotel stay was great!! we all had funnn!!! especially in the jacuzzi.....hahahahahaha...okay...i dunno wat to write already!!haha

Well,midyr exam is near...n im not veryu prepared lah!! so im gonna start revising already!!!
i hope i wont fail my english..bocos my vocab sucks lah!!!can anyone help me with my english!!!
i need a english tutor BADLY!!!

healing in progress

2008-04-21T01:09:00.000+08:00
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow i can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going ,Coming Thought i heard a knock
Thinking that (I deserve it)
Now i have realised that i really didn't knooOooOw
If you didn't notice
You mean everything (quickly I'm learning)
To love again (all i know is)
I'm be oooOook
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too Oh yeaah (It'll All get better in time)
Even though i really love you I'm gonna smile because i deserve too Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
I could of turned on the TV Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put us out your feeling If i'm dreamin
Don't want to let it (hurt my feelings)
But that's the past (i believe it)
And i know that, time will heal it If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything (quickly i'm learning) Oooh turn up again (All i know is)
I'm be ok Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too Oooh yeah (It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really love you
I'm gonna smile because i deserve too ooh (It'll all get better in time)
Since there's no more you and me (No more you and me)
This time i let you go so i can be free And Live my life how it should be (No No No No No No) No matter how hard it is I will be fine without you
Yes i Will Thought i couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too Oooh(It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you I'm gonna smile cos i deserve too yes i do (It'll all get better in time)
Thought i couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too yeaaaah Ooooh oooooh (It'll all get better in time)
Even though i really loved you
Going to smile cos i deserve too Ooooooh

OH,,,IM SO TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-04-02T18:26:00.000+08:00
hmmm karina dear dear 1st birthday was fun..i think she has fun n alot of presents...haha!!!
but be4 going to the chalet at aranda,went outram wit steph n poh ee to donate blood...the three of us wanted to donate,but only i can donate becos steph is too light n poh ee does not have enough iron in her blood!!!!wth right..everytime eh..in the end always im the onli one gonna donate blood!!LOLs...

The chalet was fun,becos get to see all my relatives n cousins...time flies,my niece is finally 1 year old..haha...n dear dear always smile brightly when she saw her mum..n will always do a funny face to her mum n me!!haha..tat was very very adorable lah...LOLs....i wanna see her soon!!LOLs...

err sch was alright,jus tat the LSG very yaya papaya!!!anyway we always make fun of her hand sign..hahahahahaahahahahaahahahahahhaah....

im disappointed!!!!

2008-03-24T20:14:00.000+08:00

School is fine...accepy for some stupid fellow!!!
well im tired!!! tired of all the nonsense n getting exhausted always being the one n all!!! u will nv know wat i have did for YOU!!!!

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2008-03-11T22:22:00.000+08:00
It's been a long time since i blog.....

Have quite alot of fun on fri,cos steph,lixin,bao,pamela,poh ee,cheryl n me went to meet xiang,yangzhi,dennison,teck heng,jordan n li wei for dinner at fish&co....
Than went to ferris wheel there to slack...is fun..haha..hmmm than ard 10plus meiyuan came to join us...but cheryl has left!
Slack till 12plus if im not wrong,than headed down to meiyuan house to drink/mj/poker...haha
err was fun la...than meiyuan n gang complain tat we girls walk damn fast..haha..we really drank alot la...we drink vodka rasyberry,barcadi,carlsberg,XO...XO taste horrible la...omg..i really wanna puke out lor...is disgusting!!!than have a good talk wit yangzhi,teck heng n poh ee...haha...well the conversation is crap!!LOLs....

I reach hm at ard 8 plus in the morning...i almost die la...super tired!!hahahahahahaha
i gonna stop writing!!!!!

oh......

2008-02-25T23:20:00.000+08:00
Today is my first day back to sch...n i feels weird!!!
the only thing tat make me feels outstanding today was,miss tham re-arrange the sitting arrangement...n KNOW WAT???? Miss tham pair me up wit him..im lyk omg..am i tat unlucky!!!!!!!!im sorry if i hurt u...but is uncomfortable sitting wit ur ex...hello!!!who will la!!!tell me tell me tell me!!!!

watever it is i told miss tham about it so she allows me to sit wit putri!!!Thanks god lah!!!
than again in the science lab...we sitted in the same bench...ok fine...
i dunno why i jus cant seem to get him out of my life totally....maybe lyk wat cheryl said:when fates come,u jus cant avoid it!....anyway let nature takes it course!!!!

i jus hope we could be normal frens..but it seem lyk is gonna be veri hard!!!!!

Dun u ppl think tat love is such a weird thing?
At this certain moment,u're so in love
but the next seconds,love just fades away!!!!

SHITTY SHIT SHIT

2008-01-12T00:16:00.000+08:00
Went shopping this few days.. n burn a hole in my wallet!!!HAHA..
brought quite alot of things n veri satisfied wit it..haha..

i fcuking irritated by u...i thought we can still be friend but i think im wrong...
aint u avoiding me...u make me feel lyk a fool...really lyk a fool!!!!
the worse thing is tat u think tat we broke up becos im tired of the relationship!!
the main reason is becos u aint doing things tat a bf shld be doing...
im tired of always be the one asking u out,tired of msging u first...
i believe if i didnt ask u out we would not seeing each other for months...
wat i wanted in a relationship is veri simple..but i dunno why.......

i think my tears are dried up!!!i will not shed a single drop of tear for u..never ever!!
becos i cried endless times when we r together...U R A STUPID LIAR!!!!

Happy New Year!!!

2008-01-04T01:54:00.000+08:00
haha...have a smashing year ahead ppl!!!

result day is drawing nearer!!!scared scared scared!!!
hmm have a veri fun ny...cos went for dinner at globe than head down to esplanade to catch fireworks...it was damn nice lah...haha..than went party world..
it's been so long since we went to k la!!!haha.. hope everyone have fun!!!

you:After giving it some thoughts...i decided to end it...im sorry that i hurt u for the second time but i wan you to know tat we broke up not becos i no longer love u...but there's some things i cant accept u not doing it!!!!! i know smth was wrong in our relationship but i always hope tat we would have a break through..it seems lyk there's no break through...so it would be better tat we end it!!i hope u will learn to be a better bf..treat ur next gf well....i hope we r still friend n u can always msg me when u feel bored!!! even though u will nv get to read this but somehow i feel better after writing it out!!
070707 will always be in my heart!!!

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2007-12-28T15:40:00.000+08:00
Opps!!!
is time for me to update..hahaha!!!
hmmm didn't have a veri fun christmas...quite a boring wan...
hope we can have a much more interesting countdown!!!LOLs...
OH...
btw...the last present tat POH EE brought for me is.....(drum roll pls)
the SAMSUNG MP3..which i was eyeing it for quite long..omg rite!!!!!hahahah
i love it alot...thanks WONG POH EE!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!

hmmm have been busy working lyk a bull....haha...hope i had earn alot of money!!!
nnn i watch 'I am Legend',,was quite a disappointing one cos i thought it was gonna be a veri nice show..but i wanna watch 'national treasure'..haha..i hope the show is nice.
oh..i oso watch alvin n the chipmunks...it was a funny movies..
i love therdore...he was cute lah...LOLs...

is time to say goodbye my dear!!! feelings can be funny sometimes!!!!
judgement day(30th dec)

my birthday my birthday!!!

2007-12-12T13:14:00.000+08:00
TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!! 12Dec
im so so so so so so happy!!!! i thanks my frens for making my birthday a big surprised!!!
all those fun i had in the chalet n those presents i got...without u ppl..my life is nth!!!

POH EE-thanks a million times!!!i love all the present tat u had given me...especially the slide show n the box of presents..i promise u tat i wont cheat kay..than the last present,i will wait for u to come back n open it wit me!!!! u really move me to tears!!!nnn thanks for taking care of me when im drunk...haha.. I LOVE YOU!!!

CHERYL-thanks for everything...especially the cake!!! i love it!!!haha..i know u ask him to come for chalet..even though i didnt look surprise but i know n i understand!!! I LOVE YOU!!

STEPH,JAS,BAO,HONG YAP,ALVIN,MYRA n CECILIA-thanks for all those fun n surprises!!!the present u all brought i will treasure it n hug to sleep everyday..hah no la jux kidding...lols...but really thanks alot...i enjoyed myself..hope u guys did too!!!!I LOVE U ALL!!

LIXIN-heyhey..have fun playing the games n drinks...lols..i really become 3yrs old lah!!!haha...somemore still need u to look after me..lols...n pluking of leaves!!hahahaahaha..I LOVE YOU!!

ADAM,NAVINN n FAIRUS-yoyoyoyyo thanks for coming ya!!!haha..hope u guys have fun..n adam i know u r trying hard to learn mahjong...lols...I LOVE U ALL!!

YOU(my pig)-thanks for coming..i know u try to come rite..wasn't expecting u to come..but really thanks alot..nnn thanks for ur present...i love it...n all...I LOVE YOU!!!

I LOVE U PPL...

wat a day!!!!

2007-12-07T23:26:00.000+08:00
U FUCKING JUZ SPOIL MY DAY!!!!!

erm today went liang court wit chers n steph..thought of buying mp3 but is all a lie lah!!!helll!!!!!
haha...than went to miss tan house to visit hannah..she's so adorable lah..hahaha..

i really hate u...really really hate u....why do u wanna ask me in the afternoon??wtf!!!
do u really have confidence to win my feelings back???so what even if u have confidence?
u didn't even offer to come n meet me all...i really dun see the point of carry on wit the relationship!!!u nv even put in any effort n u expect me to give u another chance..
i dun see tat u really wan me back badly!!!!not lyk wat u say tat u love me alot!!!!tis is all BULLSHIT!!!!since u say u r confident!!!i decide to give u another chance to prove it!!!!!!tis is gonna be the last chance!!!treasure it!!!

hmmm chalet is coming!!!yeah!!!!i cant wait for chalet lah..get to drink n all!!!hahahahahahahahahaha..
MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!!!errr FOUR days more!!!! YES AH!!!

boo

2007-11-20T00:29:00.000+08:00
haha..erm have been busy working all...damn tiring!!but tat's the onli way to get money to play!!!LOLs:DD

hmmm actually have nth much to update..haha..
erm CC dun say i not good hor..i did wait for u n jas today ok!!!say until lyk i damn bad sia u!!!
errr...ok lah..i know tis time round u have make up ur mind..i wont be so work up already..someone got indian husband dun wan me already!!!sob sob :(.....

hahahahaahahaa..i wannna buy FRED PERRY BAG n STUSSY JACKET!!!
pay day sooonnnn???hahahaahahaahaahhaaha

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

PARTY!!!

2007-11-10T01:31:00.000+08:00

i believe in my sixth sense!!!!!!

2007-10-05T17:05:00.000+08:00
well...have been spending most of my time studying!!!
but im so not prepared!! i still have quite alot to revise and all lah!!! die die die!!!
hmmm gonna really work veri hard!!!

you:well i have nth much to say..i have no idea wat happen to the both of us...i know u wont get to read tis but i would feel better after saying it out...so ppl juz bear wit me....
lyk i say earlier,i no longer have faith in u...why suddenly apologise to me..i mean u didn't to anything wrong wat!!! who will say sorry out of no reason?????ok..maybe i think too much..but in anyway do we look lyk couples when we r lyk out together???maybe u have such a simple mind tat u always dun read under all those msg i send to u..or can i say u r insensitive towards all tis....i dun blame u or anything..im at fault too...i already dunno how to carry on wit this relationship..maybe isit becos of O...i think im so contradicting!!!!something mus have happen to u...dun let me hate the both of u!!!

i swear i will nv forgive u!!!

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2007-09-17T15:11:00.000+08:00
Ytd went to meet him than after tat went the one to celebrate Ben birthday!!

u told me this which really touches me!!
N:it has been wit me since i born
but on 7 july2007 it is gone!!
P:huh?? wat thing??
N:u think properly!!
P:i give up lah!!
N:MY HEART LAH!!
P:oh...hahaah...

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2007-09-16T02:55:00.000+08:00
YEAH..prelim is over!!but but but this means O level is coming soonnn!!!omg...im really gonna buck up!!!!

On fri,steph,bao n me went bugis shop shop..nnn i spend alot of money..die die die lah!!shit lor...i have to work to cover up the money i have spend..or not mum is gonna kill me!!!
than after tat we meet jas n lixin...went to paradiz to play pool...bao n me create alot of jokes ah!!haha..

Pig darling!!....i simply just love u!!!everyday i grow to love u more!!!haha..u say we will last!! i believe u!!!haha....i believe no matter wat obstacles we r gonna go through we would still hold on tight!!!we would grow even closer after all the obstacles we go through..Agree wit me!!hahahahaa:DDD
I LOVE YOU!!!!

:DDDDDD

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2007-09-10T23:11:00.000+08:00
My lovely FEON!!!
baoyi me n chers

steph jas baoyi n me

me eric n baoyi

cca me n baoyi

me n feon!!

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2007-09-09T20:33:00.000+08:00
BOTTOM UP IS FUN!!!LOLs...
hmmm ytd went bottom up n drink..omg..three ppl finish whole bottle of chivas can...say we r power..hurry hurry!!hahaha..the three ppl is Eric,Poh ee n me!!hahahaahahaa...

err im at godma house nw..fion is ao adorable..she is sick,having stomach flu...watever she ate she will vomit out...veri ke lian can...she loves Barney n Hi5..lols...im accompanying her now..lols...Adorable kid!!!

hmmm having prelims tis whole week..im sosososososo dead..lols...

ps:lols...study ppl!!

2007-09-08T02:32:00.000+08:00
HAPPY 2ND ANNIVERSARY TO US!!!
haha hope u enjoy today nnn oso would lyk the video i have done it up for the both of us!!LOLs
hmmm study hard for ur prelims n O..okok...

err even though our relationship might not be bless by many ppl...i juz hope tat we would learn to treasure wat we have now!!hmmm i dunno isit becos i had think too much, but i juz feel tat smth is wrong wit our relationship!!but i hope we would try to work it out lor!!!
Seriously i have no confident tat we would last long...so juz treasure wat we have now!!

If one day we really broke off...is because i love u deeply n as long as u r happy..i will be happy too!!! i know u wont be able to read tis but i feel much more better writing it out!!LOLs

Hmmm have been busy studying for prelims nnn oso getting myself prepare for O level...im damn freaking scared can...im afraid tat i would retain!!!! Im really gonna chiong study liao..no more drinking already..
Most prob maybe after Os..hahahahahahaha

ps:study hard ppl...n play hard when is over!!!LOLs :DDD

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2007-08-28T01:22:00.000+08:00
busy studying for prelims n Os....STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

things aint as good as u think of...nothing lasts forever...when i say is over...so be it!!!

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2007-08-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

2007-08-09T02:03:00.000+08:00

this was taken on our first month anni...haha..

boo

2007-07-24T22:32:00.000+08:00
hmmm sch lifes is still the same..so boring la can...go sch n sleep onli..ok la..got study abit wan lah..erm today stay back in sch to watch the pig soccer match anyway leo lose AGAIN..
He injured his leg lor..haiz..n he walk damn slow lor..ok lah forgive u cos u injured ur leg!!!haha

o..i have got love rival lor..her name is shanti...well his mine already so step back lah!!haha..erm going dental wit him tmr..haha..n he claim tat he've got a surprise for me tmr...well im curious lah!!haha...

erm talking to yap now..haiz,he has got his problem too..haiz..so irritating lor that sickening guy..lols

ps:lovesyoulotsa!!!

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2007-07-15T22:02:00.000+08:00
well..veri long since i update..so gonna update today!!!
hmm gonna chiong study aready cos O's jux round the corner or maybe a few more months...but im not prepare for it yet!!!so gonna chiong ah!!!!

erm got back wit him aready!!!super duper happy!!:) 777 is remembered!!!HAHA
busy wit studies n work now..was really catching up wit all the sch work..esp maths...
biaoyi child's full month ytd..but i was working...

hmmm ytd went to BOTTOM UP!!was fun..meet out wit poh ee, hong yap,zhishen n eric...we finish the whole bottle of chivas can..omg we r so power lah!!!nnn all of us reach hm at ard 7plus in the morning!!haha...baoyi n eric became the merlion!!!LOLs...
FUNnnnnnnn!!!!!!!

i will treasure you!!

goodbye my lover,goodbye my friends!!!

2007-06-08T00:33:00.000+08:00
well,reach penang in the morning ard 6plus...i onli slept for 1 hour lor,n godsis say we have reach penang!!lols...i juz could not get to sleep..was damn awake can...lie die in the afternoon..haha..super duper tired!!!

than went shopping at ard 5plus...than went for dinner at tis restaurant...the food is nice!!!:)than went back to the house,than ard 11plus,godsis boyfren came to fetch us out for dessert!!alright,i feel lyk a gooseberry can!!!haha...overall today i did not really shop la!!!

well,chat wit sweetheart online jux now..n told her about the breaking up thingy...im veri confused!!i cant feel my love for u n oso cant feel the love u have for me!!!u really make me feel insecure..but,erm i do misses u la!!!erm feel terrible without contacting u!!!Well,wat a messy mind i have now....

Byeeeee!!!

2007-06-06T17:10:00.000+08:00
i leaving to malaysia!!byee..dun miss me!!haha

booozzzzzzzzz............

2007-05-30T06:23:00.000+08:00

haha..veri long nv update liao...now im at chers "chalet"..haha...erm went the one jux now..nnn we drank HOT POPS!!!yeah!!!but no kick sia..chivas is still the best!!!lols..
erm pohee is still the one who vomited!!lols...erm chat wit vincent too...nnn tis nicholas keep asking chers wanna go play basketball together anot...lols..ask alot of times lor..crazy sia!!!lols..

erm sis keep asking me to go penang wit her...i feel lyk going eh!!!cos i wanna buy lotsa of clothes from there..haha..nnn i dun have to pay a single cent lor...cos all my ATM at there!!haha..juz kidding!! :D

erm cant get in contact wit him tis few days aready la!!!cos his phone kana confiscated by his dad..sianz...contact me soon kkkk..lols..

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2007-05-20T22:38:00.000+08:00
veri long nv update liao..so im here to update about my recent life!!!!haha...erm did veri badly for my mid yrs...so im gonna study veri hard for o lvl...is super important!!!haha...

erm on the 18may...wooo...is alot of fun...went the one till to sing n sing till 4plus...was fun..took lots of photo...haha...hong yap fall asleep while waiting for his song...nnn alvin was drunk cos he drank alot of chivas when playing gam wit pohee...we order one bottle of chivas lor..nnn i alone finish one bottle of white wine..than carry on drinking chivas..but luckily im not drunk!!haha...was fun lor...if chers can make it..more fun!!!

will upload the photos soon...

ps:19may2007

So sick of Love!!!

2007-05-01T02:01:00.000+08:00
well,have been veri busy tis few days..as u know mid yr..hmmm i think i screw up my maths paper one lah..is so damn thick n is damn hard lah!!!but im gonna study for my math paper two..cos dun wanna fail too badly for maths...having maths paper two n hist paper on weds...so gonna have a good rest on tue nite!!!really gonna buck up on my studies liao...having O level tis yr..but im still slacking during lesson time except for eng,combined humans n physics!!!

Lucks for ur exam ppl!!!

Wat is love all about...isit how a person hurt one another hearts!!!!

stop messing up my life...leave me alone..u liar...liar liar liar~!!!!

2007-04-29T17:51:00.000+08:00
I can't believe I'm standing here
Been waiting for so many years and
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart
You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real
I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer
Can you see
Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life!
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light!
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true!
I love to be loved by you!

Your looking kind of scared right now
Your waiting for the wedding vows
But I don't know if my tongues able to talk
Your beauty is just blinding me
Like sunbeams on a summer stream and
I gotta close my eyes to protect me
Can you take my hand and lead me
From here please yeah yeah..
Chorus:
Baby, tell me how can I tell you
That I love you more than life!
Show me how can I show you
That I'm blinded by your light!
When you touch me I can touch you
To find out the dream is true!
I love to be loved, I need to be loved
I love to be loved by you!

I know they gonna say our love's not strong enough to last forever
And I know they gonna say that we'll give up because of any weather
But how can they understand that our love is just heaven sent
We keep on going on and on cause this is where we both belong
Yes I love to be loved by you!

This song is super nice ah..is veri meaning full too..lyk tis song alot..haha

erm ytd went to study at novena starbucks...than after tat went to peninsula plaza...than shop lor..hmmm than went to funan It mall food court for dinner...sat there for veri long than around 9plus leave tat place.baoyi,alvin n hong yap came to my house n play mahjong..than went prata house for supper..btw ppl...the next time u go prata house to eat,please please double check the bill..cos ytd the person counted wrongly..our food actually cost 15.40..but the person counted as 20.90.....see the diff anot...lols..but normally we dun count,but cos ytd the four of us was totally broke tat's y..lols...

btw got pics to upload..is baoyi tatoo...veri nice..n Mickal say baoyi "dan ba dian"..lols..the tatoo-ist veri funny n straight forward...but a veri good tatoo-ist..he have got his on principle on tatoo itself..n he stand for his principle...good rite..lols

ps:i hope mid yr could last longer!!!

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2007-04-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

Let me upload the photo of my injured leg n arm!!haha

Well,fall sick for the past two days..having fever n headache..n smth went wrong to my stomach..i swear i will nv eat KFC!!!erm not completely recover yet..still feel some pain coming from my stomach!!!!for the pass few days have been eating porridge wit pickled veg...cos too oily,i will vomit...but hor i miss fried rice!!!haha...erm i can onli describe one word for myself n tat is unlucky!!!i fall down lor..after speech day..wa lao eh..damn paiseh can!!hell lah!!!

erm speech day went on smoothly...n the GOH-mr henry heng talk to me ah..i was so freaking scared n nervous...lols...cos he kept staring at my name tag..so i guess he is gonna talk to me...lols...tat's all for the day i think!!!

I promise you my heart
I promise you my life
I promise we'll never be apart
I promise not to hurt you
I promise to never make you cry
I promise to always trust you
I promise not to lie
I promise you forever
I promise to do things right
I promise to always be there
I promise until the end
I promise to be your best friendI
promise this foreveryour the PEANUT to my BUTTER
your the STAR to my BURST
your the POP to my TART
your the MILKY to my WAY
your the FRUIT to my LOOP
your the LUCKY to my CHARMS
your the ICE to my CREAM
but mostly....

a nice phrase isn't it!!!

ps:i lost u isn't it..i know is not gonna last long!!!

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2007-04-16T22:26:00.000+08:00
hmmm..back from the hospital...my niece,wen jing,wan transfer back to ICU today again...the doctor say she suddenly stopped breathing!!!all the tubes were insert back into her body again..she was recovering already..n everyone thinks tat she will be back hm by next week...but now,she wont be coming back so fast...Now,my whole family juz pray hard that she is gonna be alright...

erm thanks godsis for blessing me 20bucks..but i spend it all in one day..lols...erm finally,chers n me pass 2.4km..erm chers wasn't veri pleased with the timing..

ps:veri bless to have my godsis!!!she is the best!!!

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2007-04-15T03:24:00.000+08:00
erm im at my sis house..lols..sianz..erm actually dun really have anything to update about..oya..sis say alvin will be back next week..haha...hmmm im onli veri attracted to him lah..lols...

erm as for u...i dunno if i have feeling for u..but currently i onli treat u as a fren..maybe im not ready for it or smth..juz hope to concentrate on my studies now...actually is hard for me to believe u...i tried but i would always doubt u...n tat's no connection between us...i oso cant feel...if we really gonna be together one day,is a miracle than!!

ps:i believe im stubborn!!!

2007-04-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

nice purple adidas bag!!!o..btw im a purple lover!!!

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2007-04-12T22:56:00.000+08:00
hmmm mid yr is coming...have been going out to study...tired sia!!!really tired!!all i wanna do now is to concentrate on my studies!!!nth is gonna get the better of me!!!

have you ever been in love?
horrible isn't it?
it makes you so vulnerable.it opens ur chest and it opens up ur heart and it means tat someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build all the defenses,you build up a whole suit of armor so tat nth can hurt you.
then one stupid person,no different from any other stupid person,wanders into ur stupid life.
You give them a piece of u.they didn't ask for it.
They do something dumb one day,like kiss u or smile at u and than your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.it get inside you
It eats you out n leaves u crying in the darkness,so simple a phrase like "maybe we shld juz be frens" turns into a glass splinter working its ways into ur heart.
It hurts.
Not juz in the imagination
not juz in the mind
its a soul-hurt,a real gets-inside-you and rips-you-apart kinda pain...
I HATE LOVE
By:Jez(=
(hope u dun mind posting tis)
is really quite true lor!!!

2007-04-06T03:31:00.000+08:00
sweets!!but covered wit flour!!lols
sch new cleaner..WONG POH EE!!

Wan some sweets??

ok la..give u sweets..dun be sad!!haha

Be4 Enrolment!!

Cheers!!!

After Enrolment!!!

Enjoy the pics!!lols

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2007-03-31T17:36:00.002+08:00
Fri:
Got gb at 1.30..have fun during gb..becos we were playing wet games...is fun ok..nnn got pictures to upload...dun worry,pictures will be uploaded soonnnn...haha..erm go crazy in the gb room..lols...than oso got rehearsal for enrolment..hell..i juz cant let the cane stay straight lah..it keep going downwards..haha...anyway i will try!!! hmmmmmmmmmmmm......

Went jas house void deck ton..erm actually not really ton lor..onli go hm at a veri late hours ma!!!haha..reach hm at around 3 plus lyk tat...got me u n me lor..haha juz kidding..got pohee,steph.,jas,myra n me...haha..but myra went hm around 1 plus after our prata session..lols...took pictures too...o..btw mum is back from genting..tat means my freedom will be controlled again...but godma say wanna bring her go genting on the 23 april..haha..better bring her go..lols...

Now im at godma house..sianx...o..sis is discharge from hospital ytd afternoon...but my niece have to stay in the hospital for six weeks...so longggg la...i wanna carry her...she is cute n adorable...lols...is a pity tat i wont be helping sis to look after her liao..cos of mid year..sianz..but nvm i free will go punggol visit her de..lols...
sis say he went to Laos today morning...sianz cannot message him...haha..

is so complicated!!!

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2007-03-31T17:36:00.000+08:00
Fri:
Got gb at 1.30..have fun during gb..becos we were playing wet games...is fun ok..nnn got pictures to upload...dun worry,pictures will be uploaded soonnnn...haha..erm go crazy in the gb room..lols...than oso got rehearsal for enrolment..hell..i juz cant let the cane stay straight lah..it keep going downwards..haha...anyway i will try!!! hmmmmmmmmmmmm......

Went jas house void deck ton..erm actually not really ton lor..onli go hm at a veri late hours ma!!!haha..reach hm at around 3 plus lyk tat...got me u n me lor..haha juz kidding..got pohee,steph.,jas,myra n me...haha..but myra went hm around 1 plus after our prata session..lols...took pictures too...o..btw mum is back from genting..tat means my freedom will be controlled again...but godma say wanna bring her go genting on the 23 april..haha..better bring her go..lols...

Now im at godma house..sianx...o..sis is discharge from hospital ytd afternoon...but my niece have to stay in the hospital for six weeks...so longggg la...i wanna carry her...she is cute n adorable...lols...is a pity tat i wont be helping sis to look after her liao..cos of mid year..sianz..but nvm i free will go punggol visit her de..lols...
sis say he went to Laos today morning...sianz cannot message him...haha..

is so complicated!!!

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2007-03-29T16:54:00.000+08:00
omg..sis have give birth..im super duper happy...lols...but cos the baby is still young so have to keep inside the incubator...lols...erm super happy..erm gonna visit sis in the evening...lols...she's suffering..hahahaa..juz kidding..

erm today after sch got rehearsal for enrolment..omg i think i cant shout...cos my voice will run away...haha...mus drink lotsa of water sia..lols...

erm is hard for me to accept..y do guys always come back after everything is over...im sorry if i have hurt u but.....

im not wat u think of!!!

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2007-03-28T20:51:00.000+08:00
erm today got enrolment rehearsal...than went back hm ard 6plus cos cca n me were polishing boots..than wong poh ee is packing the gb room...first time sia..she pack things...haha..juz kidding...erm than went back hm...OMG i got tis news from mummy...she ask me to called her...n she told me sis is in the hospital waiting to be labour...omg..is lyk it is suppose to be giving birth during june wat..im worried for her but i could'nt contact her...haiz..erm the doc say her baby veri heavy..so have early labour...is gonna be alright...

nnnn..poh ee,cca,mei eng n i will be marching for speech day..erm we gonna combine wit bb..lols..tianyu told me im gonna be RSM n have to shout tis veri LONGgggggg command...omg..im dying soon..haha...schs alright today!!!

erm is hard for me to believe u...give me time..lols

erm im gonna be auntie soon...gonna have my first niece..super happy..lols

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2007-03-25T01:03:00.000+08:00
erm so long since i blog...lols..erm the one week hols was ok...erm mon n tue went back sch for gb..than wed went out wit godsis n we catch a movie in the nite..btw music n lyrics is nice...ppl give it a try!!lols...erm thurs went steph house to ton...n we meet fairus n frens too...

erm ytd went poh ee house ton..n play mahjong..lols...poor felifala...she lose alot..n WONG BAOBAO won the most ok..ppl ask her treat u all..lols...erm but i fall asleep during the second half of mahjong session...oya,steph sry hor..i dun have much patient in teaching stuff...so ask jas to teach u mahjong..lols...than early in the morning went back sch for gb...the girls were going drill com today...n overall they did their best...n is good!!!after gb,went hm n zzzZZZzzz...haha..super duper tired..lols..erm but poh ee n cca went for dragonboat...lols..

that's all for today...

想听的话你说给了他我的快乐从此蒸发，
如果不是爱的代价那伤心想象该怎么还。
想听的话得不到回答我却还在独自装傻，
回答是我的脸颊好让你看不见我眼角的变化。。。。

is sad to know u r not being trusted n loved...i feel left out ppl...)=

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2007-03-07T23:39:00.000+08:00
finally,i break down....everythings tat happen recently was making me suffocating...wat happen actually!!!!!it wasn't lyk tat in the beginning...

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2007-02-16T19:39:00.000+08:00
erm veri long nv update liao..lols...

erm btw happy belated vdays..haha..erm studies:i fail my maths test n history.haiz...got to study liao..lols...after cny let's go study man...lols..tat's all for sch lifes..

erm ytd went j8 wit steph..n she acc me walk here n there jux to find manicure shop which is not fully book..thanks sweetheart :)...erm than we oso went icekemo for ice cream...the shop look more pinkish after the renovation...but i still lyk the atmosphere n the ice cream oso...haha n we use to study..lols...let's find one day n go there study...lols

erm cny coming liao...haha..can get lotsa of angpao...gonna be rich girl soon...haha...erm went to do manicure today at j8...together wit chers n my sis...chers,my sis say u n me really look alike..haha...i think we're tired to debate ourself tat we r not twins...lols...ermmm btw,i hope u did not feel left out wit me today...my sis say she feel left out ok..lols...dun care her la...hahahaha....

ps:mens r jerk..dun u think so...

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2007-01-25T21:50:00.000+08:00
veri long nv update liao...erm tis month is a busy wan...lols..

erm nth much to update actually...erm been working on weekends to earn some extra cash...n to buy new year clothes..lols...nth much to say anyway...

ps: somethings no matter how hard u try,it wont change..juz like ppl heart!!!

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2007-01-12T16:56:00.000+08:00
erm tmr tat's sch..but im not asleep yet..was thinking alot of things n cry abit bit lor...many things happen n i dunno how to say it..

sisters:no matter wat i hope we would always stay as one ya...maybe there're things that i might not know or i cant feel the way u feel..but i know is gonna be hard...

wee essential:dun think too much ya...u can always come to us ya...anyone tat u feel comfortable wit...

ps:im giving u up..lols...ohhh feel lyk drinking..haha